a little place called home...

I have changed for the better, but things have changed for the worse.

2009-08-27T06:24:57Z

Its been a while, but I've been busy raising kids and working full time. Things have happened, I have changed...for the better.

Yes, I'm working again. Seems that if we need more money, the husband won't get start his career with his degree he worked seven years for, but will sit on his ass waiting for me to get a job. I swore up and down in 2006 that I'd never return to McDonald's after four rather dreadful years there, and yet, I've returned. I work in Valparaiso now, instead of Hebron, and I'm getting ready to go back into (GASP) management. Tuesday is the day of certification. Seems I'm on the fast track since this store needs a manager. Three months ago, I was clawing my way into the managers' good side (for some reason, I was their personal punching bag for a few weeks) and now I'm a trusted employee. Go figure.

The day I found out that my application had been taken in and I was hired started out well. I was stoked that my interview was the next day and Mike and I were cheerful at the thought of more money. However that excitement was short lived. Two hours later, I got a call from Mike at work. He was audibly upset. His cousin had died. 28 years old, went to the doctor for a headache, was given migraine meds, went to bed early, never woke up. She suffered a stroke and never knew it was happening. She was very sweet and caring and it really affected us all. Her funeral was beautiful and she had over 300 people attend. I wish that I was that loved, but I don't wish for the same outcome.

Sadly, because she was young and died unexpectedly, she was autopsied. When I walked up to the casket, I could tell. It was horrible. Her face was sagging on one side, her chest and belly were caved in along her median line, and she had to wear a scarf around her neck to mask the Y-incision. Her body was bruised and broken, butchered. I knew it had to be done, but I HATED it. I hated seeing someone so beautiful in life left like that.

A few days after the funeral, I started work. I wasn't sleeping, I was too tired to sleep it seemed. After about a week of work, I was driving home from Valpo, and it dawned upon me. Why must there be death to sustain me? If I could avoid killing animals, there would be no death or suffering or pain. I thought hard and was enlightened in my after work meditation. Why is it that when a person dies, we cry and mourn and bury our dead? But when an animal is killed, we have a barbecue and celebrate? What tears are shed for the animals who are killed for us to eat? None. Do we mourn them? No. What about their funeral? That's right, their funerals are in our gut, their bodies rendered into shit. When people saw my cousin after she was butchered, they wept, yet no one is phased by the meat on their plate. My mind was set: I became a Vegetarian. I tried being vegan, but it was too hard to start out like that. I'm happy to say its been almost three months of my vegetarian diet, and I feel great. I was afraid of faltering, but I've pulled through. I have the support of Mike and Kim, and Jill, and my cousin Cory (Jill and Cory are Vegetarians too). To others, I have been perceived as a freak for NOT eating animals. "What's wrong with you??" "Are you sick?" "WHY?!?" are all common responses I get when people at work scoff at me for ordering my food meatless. I don't get it, I don't push vegetarianism on others, but people have the gall to make fun of me when I've done nothing to them. People have rubbed bacon on my food even. Why is it weak and weird to not eat an animal? I choose not to and that's not weakness. It took a lot of strength to pull away. Now, I'm so disgusted at the sight of meat that I don't think I'll ever go back. Yay! (also, vegetarians get an extra 7 years to live :D) Too bad I'm a joke at family parties, especially Mike's family :(

So now that I'm an animal lover to the extreme, I've realized today that I don't fit the Republican standards anymore. Well, I didn't before, but now I really don't. I read something on Facebook about discussing the wolf hunt in Idaho. I said I don't believe in killing wolves since they were there first and I was told that all wolves must die because they kill cattle. Yes, the same cattle killed for meat. So, wolves must die so people can eat meat? So there's double the death? And this is what true Republicans are? OMG! Sarah Palin comes to mind...oh my God! I'm not a Repub anymore. I'm not a Dem, either. I am no one. I am not Bisexual anymore, I'm me. I'm Peyton. No more will people tell me that I must believe or live a certain way to fall into a group. Labels are just words used to group people into classes. I will be free of these labels from now on. I guess I'll have to drop the "vegetarian" label and just say "I don't eat meat cuz I think its wrong personally". Yeah, that works!

I feel better about myself. I'm not so tired anymore since I've stopped eating meat and I'm slowly losing the baby fat from the last pregnancy. I have a shorter, sassier haircut and a new set of morals. I am free from myself, but I'm not fully free. Not much has changed between me and Mike. Its gotten worse. He has his college degree sitting in the bedroom going to waste as he's working at McDonald's. We've not been eating well and can't keep up with our bills. I sat at home and watched the kids so he could finish school, so that when he was done and had his career started I could return to school to get my nursing degree. Now, I'm not sure when I'll go back to school. He's just sitting around while I'm waiting for my chance to start my life. I didn't think it was possible to hate the person you're married to, but I'm definately thinking its happening. Now, he's going back to school to get a special education certification to add on to his English degree. When am I going back?? He thought he'd offer to let me go to school twice a week while Kim was here, and I told him no. There's no way I'm going to school part time for a nursing degree; it would take four years at least for an associates degree! He said that he was giving me the chance to return, but I know he just wanted to get me off of his case for returning to school without asking me first. Ugh.

I had a great time with Kim when she came up from NC for a week, and I'll save that for a later post. A happier post. Maybe tomorrow night, when I'm well rested and happy from seeing my sister Robyn (yay!). Until then, I'm going to bed, and cleaning the apartment. Goodnight all!

Writer's Block: Gamer's Choice

2009-04-13T20:31:01Z

What is your favorite old-school video game?

Submitted By 2hated2care

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That's a toughie! I'm going to say it is Super Mario Bros 3 for NES. I love that game so much and still get a kick outta it 20 years later. I also enjoy Tetris, Sonic the Hedgehog 2, and Crash Bandicoot, but I could only choose one overall favorite :)

Fill it out NOW!!

2009-02-20T06:43:31Z

Grey's Anatomy/Private Practice friending meme

Fill it out for great justice!

I'm not dead...I SWEAR!!! :D

2009-01-24T18:56:06Z

First of all I want to wish everyone a Merry Belated Christmas!!!!

Sorry for disappearing; with the economic crap, we have lost our internet because we can't afford it. This post is being made at the local library (YAY for being broke!!)

What's been going on in my life? Not much. Cristmas kinda sucked (seeing a deer's throat being cut on Christmas Day ruined it for me) but hell, we all survived, so it can't be too bad, right?? I finally got Private Practice Season 1 and Grey's Anatomy Season 4, as well as some new clothes and Brisingr (the third book of the Eragon series).

After Christmas began the seemingly forever wait for the baby to arrive. On Jan. 12th the doctor and I decided on inducing labor on the 15th so it was nice getting to get everything done before the baby arrived.

And now...the story of the arrival of Addison Erin Jung (formally known as Erin Addison; Mike had a change of heart :D)

The air temperature was -2 degrees at 5:30AM when we arrived at the hospital to begin the induction. I checked in and went to room 709, where a nurse and the bare butt hospital robes were waiting for me. Oh joy, I thought. I remembered the pain of labor and was surprised that I was excited to be here, and also willing to walk into pain's grasp. But the baby was going to come out eventually anyway, so at least I was at the hospital safe and not stuck at home giving birth in the bathtub.

The IV needle slipped effortlessly into my left wrist and they started the Pitocin drip at around 6:15 or so. I ate breakfast. I watched some TV. Nothing was really happening. Then my Doc arrived in a sweatshirt and Notre Dame Fighting Irish scrubs and broke the water...and then she said,"Ew...poop." The baby had messed itself...a not very good sign. She assured me that it was ok, yet I worried. At about 9AM I started to feel the contractions, but they weren't too bad. At around ten I asked for my good friend Stadol to ease the pain. The nurse tried to get me to stand up and walk around to ease pain instead and I said flat out "No." After I got a dose, I dozed a little, but then the contractions became murderously painful and I called for the nurse. She told me flat out that I hadn't dialated more than 4 cms, and that this is the reason that they don't check often. But I felt different. This was intense. Something was happening.

They gave me another dose of Stadol at 1025, but the pain was still there, gnawing away at my innards like a thousand rabid rats. I looked to Mike, who was sitting next to my bed and said,"I need to push now" He told me not to (which I knew I couldn't do until the doctor was there) and left to get the nurse. She came in and told me to push. I resisted because I knew that if I did, the baby would be here without the doctor. No one knows their body more than themselves. She put in her notes that my push attempts were unsucessful. She called my doc, who was at her practice three minutes away, and told her to not come yet, since I wasn't ready. That was total bullcrap! So I pushed once, when she was calling the doc. I then felt the baby fall a little. In curiosity, I reached down to see what was going on, and lo and behold, there was the head. The nurse arrived and saw that I was crowning and ran back to the phone to inform the doc that indeed the baby was here and that she needs to hurry. (At this time, they paged the hospital "Dr. McCormack to room 709" My mom and sister heard this in the waiting room and knew it was my room) Now there were two nurses scrambling around my hoo hoo. They told me to push, but I was reluctant to do so since the doc wasn't there. However instinct took over and I pushed. Then I heard "STOP!!! DON'T PUSH!!" and then the nurses chattered to each other "Clamp there, and clamp...there...ok, now cut..." Its what I was dreading: the cord was wrapped around her neck. After the cord was cut the doctor ran into the room and was able to catch the baby.

Everything started to make sense. Now I knew why Addison would thrash about in the womb after a Braxton-Hicks contraction. It was the same reason she messed herself in utero, and why her heart rate dropped during labor contractions. Poor thing. I was really afraid that she would be ill, but once the cord was cut, she screamed, and its one of the few times in your life where a scream is a good thing to hear. Its been a week and a few days since her birth and she's as healthy as can be, so we are truly blessed. Aislynn is taking pretty well to having a new sister, except she's tearing the house apart worse than before because she and the cat have teamed up to destroy the peace.

Oh well, that's life I guess. As soon as I get pics, I'll post them. Good bye everyone, I hope to chat again soon.

PS: Here's Addison's Stats:
Weight: 6lbs 13oz
Length: 18.5"
Time and Date of Birth: 10:40AM 1/15/2009

Oh COME ON!! >:O

2008-12-04T23:14:35Z

I've got a bone to pick with Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice, so be warned. I am NOT a happy camper here!

(And I know I'm always angry, bitchy, grouchy when I post, but understand that if I'm happy, I usually don't waste bliss on the internet. Also, there not much to be happy about now, since my ankles and feet have swollen to the point of turning blue and it feels like I've sprained them, or the fact that the wind chill is 9 degrees, or that the sun sets at 430 in the afternoon.)

Ok, here we go. I wasn't a fan of GA until my sister came up from college and watched an episode while she visited. It was 3.09 "From a Whisper to a Scream" and I was busy feeding and burping my at the time 2 month old so I sat next to my sister and watched. I was blown away! (This episode was released on Thanksgiving 2006) The next day, my mother and I went to Target for some Black Friday shopping and I saw that season 1 of GA was only 10 dollars, and since I was curious about the show, I snatched it up. I went home and watched it with Mike and we were hooked. Then we bought season 2 and after a few weeks, we finished every episode. At the same time I was watching the current season so we got caught up pretty quickly.

We watched all of season four, and we both agree it was pretty lame compared to the first 3 seasons, but we understood how the writers strike effected it. No big deal. But here came season 5! I was so very excited!

In the beginning, the show rocked. Then they started to screw around with the characters and then even replaced Dr. Hahn, whom I adored dearly. And then came Dr. Autistic and I started to dislike the show. The final straw was adding Denny's ghost. Now the show is something that resembles a dog turd wrapped in a pretty bow. One of the things I liked about GA was how realistic it was about the lives of doctors. I know they don't sleep around in RL like they do on the show, but the medical terminology and the procedures are real. I couldn't find a better mix of medical drama and human relationships. Now we have unreal doctors (like Asspie Dr. Dixon or mister macho army dude Dr. Hunt) and ghosts? Its bullshit slop. I have said I'll stop watching the show if they continue on this line of horrible plot devices. I'd rather see the show end, then to see it fail and get cancelled.

So now that I've lost faith in Grey's Anatomy, I decided that Private Practice will get most of my attention. I've loved the new season until last night. Why? Because they brought up a topic that should've NEVER been brought up: Abortion. I don't care if you are pro-choice or pro-life since I have friends on both sides, but you do NOT bring it up in a tv show. I hated Meg before she was a doctor at the practice. I thought she was irritating and that her face constantly looks like this (D:) Then I find out she's an abortionist...fucking great. Now I don't mind if they mention abortion every so often but to actually have a doctor who performs them? That's not good. But the obvious prochoice onesidedness? NOT COOL! I know that most of the fanbase are young women who have never had a child, and therefore are usually pro-choice, but to say "Hey girls! Its totally cool to kill your unborn child cause its your own body" just really rubbed me the wrong way. Violet the shrink has no qualms with killing her babies, Naomi is against it (as am I), and Addison is pro-choice, but she regrets aborting Mark's baby (I find her pretty neutral). And when Naomi voiced her opinion, she is ganged up on. And then the girl ended up aborting her baby at the end anyway...so it had a horrible ending that proved the point that murder is ok. Private Practice condones murder. At least Addison redeemed herself (I was so pissed at her that I swore I'd drop myself as a fan) at the end by crying from the guilt. She realises her mistake.

Both GA and PP are jumping the shark now. GA is circling the drain with ghost stories and more characters; PP is bringing up completely controversal and unnecessary topics as plot devices, and by doing so, outs half of the viewers who happen to be prolife. I never really had an issue with PP until last night. I don't see the reasoning behind this other than to piss off viewers. Well, they got what they wanted. I'm LIVID! I'm two seconds away from never watching the shows again.

Not Much

2008-11-20T01:05:18Z

I don't know if its because I'm older or if I'm noticing it more now that I am living on my own, but I have realized something: The World SUCKS!

1. The economy, Washington DC, and people are shit. Not all people, but so many are. Watching the news is like watching America being tortured slowly with papercuts. The "ecomony did this", the "bailout will do that"...I'm just sick of it! I know of a few people that thought that the "messiah Obama" would fix the economy, but alas, stocks are still falling. I didn't get my seasonal job with Target like I was planning because they are cutting back. How am I supposed to spend if I don't have a job? And how can they give me job when no one's spending?? Its a vicious cycle that most of America is suffering with. Mike and I decided to not use our heat unless it gets below 10 degrees outside to save money on electricity. God invented sweaters for that reason, right?

2. As for people being shit, I've been observing the other tenants of the apartment complex. The neighbor below us gets into yelling matches with her two sons (who are old enough to be on their own) and her voice hits high enough decibels to pierce the floor. I sometimes open my windows to cool down the apartment, and either she starts screaming at someone outside, or more commonly, one of her sons lights up a cigarette right below my balcony. The smoke gets into my house and it makes me sick. The sons constantly slam doors hard enough to cause the walls to shake. And finally, the mom is too lazy to walk her dog (she claims this dog is part boxer, but you can tell he's most definately part pit bull), so when he has to go she walks him to the back access door (the same one my family uses to go to the office or for walks), lets the dog out on his leash, and she remains inside so that the dog only has maybe 5 feet of area to do his shit (no pun intended). This means that often times he craps on the outside landing. This wouldn't be an issue, except for the fact she doesn't pick it up! Aislynn and I almost stepped in it the other night.

Most of the other tenants are good: they are quiet and don't bother anyone. Don't get me wrong, the neighbors downstairs are nice, but I could do without the loudness. I do have other stories of lameness at the complex: like the black boy who stares at me angrily anytime I look at him, even if I am glancing out the window to check the weather, the teenage punks who tend to break the playground equipment, and the gray Pontiac Grand Prix that randomly has its alarm go off at all hours, even at 2 AM. It usually takes two minutes to have someone shut it off. UGH!

3. I've realized that I can't have an opinion without getting attacked for it. Twilight, for example. I read the first and second books, but can't and will never finish the third, and refuse to even touch the fourth. At first I liked them...but then I realized that its nothing more than glorified FanFic. It also teaches women that its ok to be in an abusive relationship...nice. My littlest sister, who is almost 15 is going to see Twilight: DA MOVIE at midnight....loser! Everytime I see a commercial, a part of me dies. Whenever anyone talks about those hellish books I want to hit them with a crowbar. Enough is enough, idiots! Stop pushing this horseshit "literature" onto kids. Guess what everyone, Edward and Jacob are both pedophiles!! Jacob is a borderline rapist and Edward sabotages Bella so she can't see her friends...what lovely characters for people to know. And Bella is a fucking emo fucktard thats too weak to leave precious Edward. Oh and I'll never get over the fact that asshat Stephanie Meyer made her vampires to be fangless and that sparkle in the sunlight. Give me a fucking break! I'd rather meet a real vampire who explodes in the sun.

Another thing that bothers me has to do with Grey's Anatomy. They got rid of the lesbian Dr. Hahn and replaced her for the time being with Super Autistic Doctor Lady!! I am so sick of the fucking "we must have diversity" shit that Grey's is trying to shove down my throat. But wait, I guess its not PC to have a fully gay character. But its ok to have a socially retarded lady? I never had problems with different races, but seriously, why aren't there more Indian/Hindu doctors? There are so many of them in the medical field, yet they have never appeared on the show. Cristina's asian, Callie's hispanic, Burke, Webber, and Bailey are black...and everyone else is white. Are there any Indians? NO. But anyway, there are most races covered so GA can be diverse. But nooooo, its not diverse enough says GA, now we need to bring on a doctor that's sooooo annoying it makes Dr. Sydney Heron seem quiet. But when I say she's annoying as hell, I get corrected and told, "You can't say that she's got a disability". Tough titties, she's annoying, I don't care if she's got a problem or not. And I guess that I'm not the only one to think so since I'm talked to a lot of people who agree. If they decide to keep Dr. Dixon on the show, I will not watch it. At least I still have Private Practice to fall back on, you know, the show without annoyances?

4. A good note (finally): We now have a kitten in the family. Her name is Nubbins. She is a brown tabby Manx. For those who don't know what a Manx is, its a cat that has no tail, or a stumpy one, as is Nubbins' case. She went to the vet today for her first exam and shots so she's really sleepy. Nubbins enjoys sleeping on our laps, and also bolting up and down the hallway. When I get pictures, I'll post them to show off this cutie.

Sign it!

2008-11-06T20:00:22Z

One more day :C

2008-11-05T19:44:38Z

Made this for everyone else who's mourning the loss of Dr. Erica Hahn, even before it happens. Enjoy, or whatever:

I also refuse to put this under a cut. ABC is making a big mistake >:(

Just a couple of things on my mind

2008-10-24T19:16:13Z

I plan on writing more later, but some things have to be said:

Firstly, why the hell did they turn Callie into a cheating WHORE? Who's bright idea was that? I swear to God Almighty I'm going to throttle them. Callie may not be my most fave (Addison is first) but she is very high up on the list, if not second to Addie. She was an all around good character and well rounded emotionally. She was so distraught with the loss of George and she found it hard to love again. Erica was that person that would bring her back. Things were going pretty well, but now Callie's sleeping around with Mark, while she's dating Erica, which is so freakin out of character it makes me sick! GRRRR! Now Callie's been dropped off the list of faves until she gets her act together. I AM SO FREAKIN MAD!!

Second note: I'm going crazy from watching kid shows all the time. Aislynn loves Dora and Diego. I don't mind Dora too much, but Diego has me wishing I could choke my cockatiel! Aizzie is now afraid of "pumas"...she has never seen one. And I would never call them "pumas" anyway. They are "cougars" or "mountain lions". She also has a fear of Spiders and Snakes, even though she hasn't seen one yet, other than on Diego. The random dumbass animals are "afraid" of the animal that "eats" them, but they don't mention that little fact. "Oh no! The llama's afaid of the PUMA!!!" No! What he should say is: "Oh shit! That pumas gonna rip dis llama's throat out and tear its flesh and eat it! OH FUCK!" Don't save that humpback whale for the fifth time, just let it die for craps sake! And stop teaching my child useless Spanish! CRAP! It's bad enough that Aizzie yells "Ayudame!" everytime she's in her high chair (she's calling for help) and that she says her numbers better in Spanish then in English. But now she's learning the word for "hop" and "fly" and "climb"

So, in honor of my "fave" kid show on Nick Jr. I made these two pics, enjoy:

The Goings on in my Life

2008-09-15T12:11:27Z

In summary, this is what's been going on this week: football, hurricanes, floods, sinusitis, and Aislynn's 2nd birthday. Oh, and a lot of angst, but I'll leave that out until a later date.

1. American football started! YES!! Oh how I missed you so. I would sit all Sunday watching you with my dad and we'd swear at the players for bad plays together. I would do all the celebrating though, since Dad's kinda old and he would never act like a fairy, so I do it for him. I got to take out my beloved Peyton Manning jersey and wear it last Sunday, even though the Indianapolis Colts ended up losing to Da Chicago Bears. (I like the Bears too, but not as much as my Colts or Titans) However, the Colts beat the Vikings yesterday with a second half comeback. So it seems that Indy and ChiTown are tied in the win/lose record of (1-1) since the Bears lost to the Carolina Panthers. This season will rock I'm sure. I just miss watching football with my daddy, since now I'm on my own and Mike doesn't care for football, or any sports for that matter.

2. So Hurricane Ike decided to attack my sister that lives in Houston. She fled a few more miles inland to stay with some friends. Her boyfriend is up in Indiana for a vacation (he had plans before the hurricane) and he can't get back home until they open the airport again. She called me last night to talk and to wish Aizzie a happy bday. In two days she's had about five hours of sleep total, since as she put it, you can't sleep through a hurricane. I believe her. She returned to her apartment to find that her ceiling's caving in and that the light fixtures are dropping like flies onto the floor. On that note, she's going to stay with friends until its fixed. She said the devastation is unreal: debris is scattered everywhere, power has not been restored, many windows have been blown out. She had to wait in line to get INTO the grocery store yesterday, which took an hour, and all that was left was junk food and snacks. But I have to commend her; she learned to be positive over this whole catastrophe and that nothing is more important than family and friends.

3. After Ike destroyed Texas, he decided to hit Chicago. Our rainfall totals are over 10 inches and the area is flooded. When Mike and I were driving to my mom and dad's house, we had to reroute so many times it was unreal. It reminded me of the computer game "The Oregon Trail". We had to decide whether to go over the flooded streets, or go around them and it took about an hour, instead of the usual 30 mins or so to travel. The off and on ramps of I-65 and US 231 were flooded so bad that most people avoided them. After I saw a few trucks and SUV's make it through the floodwater, I wanted to join. However Mike freaked out and I had to go another way. On the way back home, I decided to take 65 just for the sheer fun of getting to "ford a river" like in the game. The offramp scared a few people into backing up onto the interstate again, but I wasn't afraid. I had my kinda trusty navigator/first mate Mike to judge how deep the water was as I started my journey across the 300 foot long pond/lake/river. At one point the water touched the undercarriage and caused a shitload of steam, but we made it through without any damage. I won dammit! I defeated the mighty flood with my sports car. Kneel down and worship me! :D

4. Every single year I get a bad case of Sinusitis (that's doctor talk for a sinus infection) and it drives me insane. It feels like my head's going to explode and I can't do much to stop it. I stole some Sudafed from my mom last night and took a dose before bed in hopes that it would help me sleep better. I forgot that taking Sudafed before bed never works out well for me. Not only does it dry out every mucous membrane in my face to the point of pain, I also wake up every 15 mins. This is the reason why I've been up since 4AM and I'm on livejournal. I gave up trying to sleep for a while. After I post this, I'm going to try again so that I'm not a complete zombie when I get Aizzie's two year pics taken sometime later.

5. Aislynn Michelle turned two yesterday. We had a mini party at my parents' house, complete with cake, presents, and pizza. Her favorite gift has to be the kitchen set my parents got her. She literally spent hours playing with it. She boiled the toast, not heeding our suggestion to boil the potato or carrot. She even tried to cut her own cake with her play knife, but we caught her before harm was done (c'mon, could you imagine the mess of frosting and cake if it fell onto the floor??) Aizzie partied hard and fell asleep on the way home.

Now that its past 7 AM, I'm going to try and get a few more hours in of sleep. Good night everybody, and enjoy your day/week. ^_^

Writer's Block: Sharing Haikus

2008-09-05T17:10:16Z

The Japanese haiku poet Basho once wrote, "Old pond / a frog jumps / the sound of water." Try writing some of your own haikus about the little things in your life. A haiku generally consists of a five-syllable line, a seven-syllable line and a second five-syllable line. You can also use any combination of ten-to-fourteen syllables.

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Here's one about TV:

Grey's Anatomy
Starts on September 25th
Which is far away

And here's another:

I'm pregnant again
I crave the salmon sushi
But I can't eat it

And I want to post the Haiku made for Cartman on South Park for lawlz:

Ass full of pork fat
Jiggles like a jello mold
Mouth is flapping too

Random insights

2008-08-29T17:42:59Z

This entry will have insights into a few things: the new baby, returning to work, my return from the "dark side", and the cockatiel.

1. The new baby

So I'm having another baby in January. Some people know, most don't. But regardless, its making its presence known to me and Mike. I finally got to see the doctor after months of paperwork being handled (its the state's fault, not the doc's!) and its good to see her again. Like Addison, Dr. McCormack has this happy personality. She joked when I entered her office about me having twins. "Hahahaha, no!" I replied to that. Hell, I have a two year old already who's destroying everything, and I still worry about how I'm supposed to go out and do errands in a two door coupe with a newborn and a 2 and a half year old...in the dreaded Chicago winter! Then comes the thought of me trying to go grocery shopping when they don't have enough seats in the cart for a toddler and a baby carrier. And then the thought of helplessness rears its ugly head. I just might have to spend the first few months tucked away warm in the apartment until the spring arrives, like a bear does in the wild. Back to the visit: she took me in to the exam room and stuck the doppler to my belly to hear the baby's heartbeat (and I say baby becuz there was only one heartbeat) for the first time. It was strong, like Aizzie's and I had some worry taken from me that day. However, I made the mistake of doing the ultrasound too early, so now I have to go back again. The ultrasound was amazing to watch (as usual) as the baby first made its appearance. I had been afraid that it had missing limbs or organs becuz I hadn't been able to eat as much since I moved out from my parents (and the fact that I'm not working at McDonald's this pregnancy). But all limbs were accounted for, as well as a brain, heart, kidneys and bladder. I got to see the heart work, the valves opening and closing like wings on a bird. When we tried to look for the sex of the baby, we weren't able to find out much since the baby had its legs crossed and wouldn't let us see (my dad said that it must not be a boy then lol). Becuz we did see anything "dangling" as the tech put it, we're leaning towards a girl. Chalk up one more girl for our family (and another girl for Clan Finley [my blood family]). Her name shall be Kaitlyn Addison Jung, if indeed she is a girl. The next day, we were eating dinner and Kaitlyn kicked hard enough that it almost hurt. I lifted my shirt to reveal my belly and her movements were visible beneath the skin. (Imagine a cat or small dog under bedsheets for a visual representation) I told Mike who sat next to me and he quickly set his hand on my stomach and as if on cue, Kaitlyn kicked his hand.

2. Returning to work!

So many emotions come to mind when I think of work. Some good, like "I'm going to make money" but mostly bad, like "UGH! I'm going to have to deal with brats all day!" I've been called back to work for the portrait studio for the Christmas Season. I didn't get to really work the last Christmas since I was working for Target (the best job ever!) with some real hours, unlike the studio. I don't know how to handle the Christmas rush...and I hear that my boss is quitting for JCPenney's studio, so I may just apply at Target again to get out of working for the studio. I have other posts on the subject of working as a photographer in a studio in my journal, check them out if you wish.

3. Returning from the "dark side"

I refer last week as going to the dark side, as a joke from my friend Dani, who was one of the first to worry about my sudden shift from bubbly to dark, twisty, and antisocial. You can say I was there technically; I was blinded by fear, sadness and rage and nothing better to do than sit in my apartment, cry, and scream at myself. But all it took was a phone call, and I started to see again. I was lured back to the light and here I am: pretty happy, tho not as bubbly as before. These things take time and hopefully soon I'll be back to my more bubbly self.

4. Tooki, my cockatiel.

I've never mentioned my pet. His name is Tooki and he's a cockatiel (some might know him as "calopsita") He is the first bird I've ever had (I don't count the first cockatiel Toki, cuz he was mean and drew blood from a bite. He found himself returned in less than two weeks) and he's loads of fun. He sings songs, says his name "Tooki ooki ooki oooooki", wolf whistles and loves to be petted. He'll actually cry (whistle loudly) for attention and asks to be petted by bowing his head. I love my Tooki, he's a great companion and animal friend, who also poops too much!

Here are links to the sonogram pics:
http://i95.photobucket.com/albums/l121/entrapmentgirl/Babypics2016copy.jpg
http://i95.photobucket.com/albums/l121/entrapmentgirl/Babypics015copy.jpg

Super Sexy Picture Meme!!

2008-08-27T08:43:36Z

Simple meme. Answer each question with a picture! Get em from photobucket for massive fun :D

1) I identify myself as:

2) I knew I was this way since the age of:

3) The first movie star/celebrity to make me feel that I was 'different' was:

4) At that age, I definitely had fantasies about living in the world of:

^^^Crap! I wanted the old cast, but this'll have to do :P

5) Then I wanted to live in this world:

6) And while I was there, I wanted to have sex with:

and then:

and then some of:

And then a little more of:

and finally my new crush:

7) Right now, I want to have sex with:

8) The most sexy same sex person on television is:

9) The most sexy opposite sex person on television is:

10) The cast that I most want to screw:
Since I have already stated that I wanted to screw five of the cast members...

^Big surprise, huh? (didn't think so)

Snag this meme, you know you want to :D

Tornado?!

2008-08-05T06:15:03Z

I must say that the sky/God/everything hates me or something! Early on in the evening it was cloudy and hot and I was wishing for the sky to open....I didn't have this in mind though.

I saw a measly little blip on the radar north of Chicago and I laughed at it. "That's it? That's the only thing that we're gonna get tonight? Pathetic!!" I thought to myself and I continued on my merry way. A few hours later, I was screwing around on the internet and Mike was playing Jade Empire on the XBox and we both saw a flash outside. Woot! I told myself because the storm was here :D The lightning got brighter and meaner and I saw my hanging plants outside start to sway. Now I was curious. I looked out farther and saw the trees by the playground were twisting and twirling in the wind. But what finally told me that this was not your regular storm was that I could hear our apartment reacting to the drop in pressure. The door clattered a few times and the walls creaked once. I then informed Mike that I could hear the pressure drop. "No you aren't, that's people climbing up the stairs," was his response. But I was sitting by the wall next to the stairs and I would've heard that...

"Mike put the Weather Channel on!!" I commanded. He did and we just missed the local forcast. Damn it! However, there was a warning out for someone; the screaming beeps and the red bar was saying something but it wasn't for our area. I then remembered that I could use the power of the internet!! I went to weather.com and this is what popped up for us...

This is the actual warning for us. I also added where I live and what
I thought at the time. Oh and I also drew an angry face for dramatics!

A tornado?? It's been spotted and/or indicated?? In Hebron?! OH FUCK!!

I took control of the situation like a damn general in the army. "Mike, we are going downstairs! Get Aislynn now!"

"What? Why are we going downstairs?"

"God damn it, man! There's a tornado in our midst! Get Aizzie up and let's go! Its not safe on the second floor!"

(I lost power here in my post, just in case anyone cared.)

He left to get Aizzie out of bed and I ran to get pants on. (I wasn't naked, I was wearing undies cuz my pants pissed me off) I was done before Mike and Aizzie, so I was about to leave the apartment when I remembered that I couldn't leave my cockatiel Tooki. I picked up his cage and started to leave. Mike joined me and we all went downstairs to the first floor. There were surprisingly a lot of people down in the lower breezeway and we just joined in the "I had to leave my apartment so I'm here" party. Our neighbor that lives directly below us told us to come into her place and we followed her in. We sat on the couch and watched the local weatherscan as we waited for the tornado to leave. The winds got up to 80 mph! Tooki even got to meet a cat named Gabby, who watched Tooki with curiousity (He hissed however at the cat) After about 30 minutes, the warning expired and we left for our apartment. Everyone went to bed but me.

So here I am on the computer, bored outta my mind. You see, behind the angry storm, another one developed just as mean as the first (which was just a little blip two hours before...). I don't want to go to bed until the second storm passes over, just in case it spawns a tornado. I guess you can say I'm a devoted protector. We've lost power twice already and the rain is flying in all directions. Its 110 in the morning and all I wanna do is sleep but I just can't. I shot a video of the rain and I'll get it uploaded as soon as possible; but I won't do it tonight with the random outages.

I hope everyone else is doing better and I'm sure you all are :)

EDIT: Added video. Enjoy :)

I don't understand America sometimes...

2008-07-22T05:37:20Z

Before anyone flames me for having that as my title, I'm a very patriotic person. This is a post on animal treatment, not a bash on America herself. Its more about some of the people who inhabit it who turn their heads to animal cruelty, or are ignorant to the fact that the animals you eat suffer from the moment they are born. Am I telling you to become a vegan? No. I just wish people would realize the sacrifice these animals make to end up on your plate.

In this segment, I'm going to discuss something that I stumbled across tonight while on MySpace. I am a member of quite a few Animal Rights groups through MySpace and I saw in my bulletin board that there was a victory in Canada. Victory in the world of animals is rare, so I clicked on the bulletin to find that KFC Canada actually complied to the demands and wishes of PETA. Canadian KFC will now buy their chicken from slaughterhouses that humanely remove the oxygen from the air so that the chickens just go to sleep (McDonalds, Burger King, and Wendy's already do this, even in America). KFC Canada will also offer vegetarian "chicken" patties instead of real chicken to offer something for everyone. And to top it all off, KFC Canada will also work on making sure that the welfare of the chickens are protected as much as possible. This all came as a shock to me. It seems that some people really do care for animals.

The method of removing the oxygen to slaughter chickens is called Controlled Atmosphered Killing (or CAK). It has been proven to be the most humane way to end the chickens' lives, and even more sanitary than the usual way of slaughtering chickens, Electric Immobilization. Those of you unfamiliar to what this is, let me break it down for you. Basically, chickens are shackled alive and upside down and dunked into a tank full of electrified water. After this step, the chickens are brought down the line, still shackled, to the razors that slit their throats (some even remove the heads completely). Then the "dead" chickens are dunked into boiling water to remove the feathers. However, most of the electric currents in the first tank are too weak to actually knock the chicken out. Often times they are still awake and flapping in a desperate attempt for escape when they reach the razors. And that doesn't kill them most of the time and they are fully conscious when they are scalded to death. This method of slaughter causes most birds to defecate in fear on themselves and contaminates the carcasses they produce, which is unsanitary (salmonella anyone?) When they are killed through CAK, this is rare and therefore, more sanitary. But why in the hell does America still allow this method of slaugher? Money, I suppose.

I have boycotted KFC since 2003 and will continue to do so until I see changes in the US. KFC's chicken suppliers have been known for extreme cruelty and have even been videotaped doing some of the most horrific acts to animals known to man (ie: ripping live chickens apart, stomping them to death, thowing chickens into the wall with full force, spraypainting their faces, splitting tobacco into their eyes and even sexually assaulting them) After watching the vid that showed so many of these acts of violence, I vowed never to eat at KFC again until they changed how they treated their chickens. I would sit and watch my family tear apart their KFC dinner like nothing happened to the chickens that suffered for them. It made me sick. After about 5 years, I just figured that KFC didn't care or thought nothing was wrong with these acts. Tonight, I learned that KFC does care, at least in Canada. If they can do it, why can't we, the greatest country in the world? If McDonald's, BK, and Wendy's could aquire their chicken meat from CAK, why the hell can't KFC?
Its just not right! But what can you do? Well, let me tell you what you can do to help stop this cruel treatment and slaughter of the chickens used for KFC.

First get aquainted to what happens to these animals, since I can't really type everything I felt and saw in the videos found in the links below. Then, sign the petition(s). If all you can do is this, then don't feel bad for every little bit will help. However, if you are very hellbent on getting results as soon as possible and/or are very pissed at what you've seen, join a protest group. PETA has a lot of resources and things to help you protest alone, or with friends. Many people don't know what happens to the animals that end up dead on their plates, but if you hand them a flyer or brochure, they may open their eyes and may even join you in your protest.

Links:
http://www.peta.org/cak/
http://getactive.peta.org/campaign/p2_canada_kfc_victory?c=918
http://www.kentuckyfriedcruelty.com/

Baby did a bad thing...

2008-07-16T17:39:26Z

Made you look! Now suffer with another meme and pray that you haven't been tagged! *evil grin*

I am not: happy
I love: who I shouldn't
I hate: depression
I fear: death
I hope: that I'll be free and happy again
I hear: too much
I crave: what I cannot have
I regret: quitting
I cry: when I've had enough
I care: about others
I always: walk with a limp
I believe: that there's good somewhere in the world
I feel alone: on a daily basis
I listen: to everyone's problems, yet can't fix my own
I hide: my true feelings
I drive: too fast
I sing: when I'm feeling good
I dance: whenever I get the chance
I write: creatively
I play: the stupid card to not get into fights
I miss: my family
I search: for freedom and love
I learn: daily
I feel: it all, every last bit
I know: so much that I wish that I could forget
I say: too much and regret
I succeed: in hurting myself over and over
I dream: every night
I wonder: if there'll be an end to this
I want: to break my chains
I have: a lot of scars on my body
I give: whenever I can to others
I fell: down the stairs too many times
I fight: for animal rights
I need: someone to talk to

I'm going to tag Sarah (in payback of getting me that last time) and Kim (for shits and giggles). However, if you wanna do this, then go ahead and enjoy.

I Hate this crap!

2008-07-07T20:39:53Z

This is called the "alternative life meme" and basically you just have to fill out those questions with the celebrities or fictional characters that come to your mind. BUT you can only pick a person once!! No repetitions, kay? Then tag 3 other users!

I was tagged by Sarah (greys_addict)

01. The guy you would take to meet your parents:
Derek Shepherd

02. The one girl you would do:
Addison Montgomery (obvious answer)

03. The guy you'd have sex with in your parents bed:
Mark Sloan *evil grin*

04. The girl you'd take to the mall:
Meredith Grey, she and I could talk about how much people suck.

05. Your male BFF:
Brian Reegan the Comedian.

06. Your female BFF:
Kate Walsh, she and I are so much alike...its scary

07. Your gay BFF:
TR Knight! He's too cute!

08. The guy who'd take you to prom:
Edward Cullen, cuz he's a vampire and hot.

09. Your big brother:
Alex Karev

10. The guy you'd marry:
Brad Pitt, cuz he's hot

11. The two guys you'd have a threesome with:
Patrick Dempsey and Eric Dane

12. The girl and guy you'd have a threesome with:
Angelina Jolie and Justin Chambers

13. The guy you'd go clubbing with:
Jacob Black, maybe he'll turn into a wolf and it'll be cool!

14. The guy you'd have angry hot sex with:
Vince Vaughn, idk why tho

16. The girl you'd call after a break-up:
Izzie Stevens, even tho she pisses me off, at least she'd be nice to me

17. The guy you'd have sex with when no one else is around:
Zac Efron...I don't want to be thought of as a cougar! Well not yet.

18. The guy you'd have sex with when you're cheating on your hubby/boyfriend:
Orlando Bloom

19. The guy you'd tell all your secrets:
Richard Webber, he probably would keep them

20. The person you'd commit a murder with:
Cristina Yang, only cuz she'd make it fun!

21. The boy you'd go to the gym with:
Jack Black, so we could both look like fools on the equipment together. Oh and he swears a lot too, like me

22. Your shoulder to cry on:
Erica Hahn. If I was close enough to her that she'd let me cry on her shoulder, then that'd be a miracle

23. The guy you'd ask to beat up your cheating boyfriend:
Johnny Depp

24. The guy you'd always come back to:
Ralph Fiennes

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25. The guy you'd die for:
I wouldn't die for any man! >:)

Tag: troatie, since you are my only mutual friend on this thing that hasn't been tagged already lol

Uh...Sapphic Salad?

2008-06-30T19:23:30Z

Why are fake doctors so smart? Its not fair. Ok, I just found out that there's no such foodstuff as a Sapphic Salad. I was looking for a recipe, but found out the true meaning of Sapphic.

Sapphic can refer to:

Related to Sappho, a 7th century BC poetess
- Sapphic stanza, a four line poetic form
Sapphic love, related to female homosexuality

I was not expecting that. Now I feel like a dumbass. I guess I'll have to make some kind of Greek Salad and call it Sapphic for lawls and giggles.

And for some good reading, look into Sappho on wikipedia.

Girlcrush Meme!! Uber FUN!

2008-04-29T07:00:01Z

Yet ANOTHER meme! I stole this from greyssuperfan10!

Here, you gotta:

1. Post your top 10 girlcrushes
2. Reasons!
3. Pictures!
NOW EVERYONE CAN SEE ALL MY GIRLCRUSHES!!
Here're mine:

10. Uma Thurman
She kicks ass and knows how to use a katana.
She's known to play powerful women in movies.

9. Natalie Portman
Beauiful, soft features...also very intelligent!

8. Julianne Moore
Real redhead. I love her complexion!
(Pale skin is just too sexy to me)

7. Nicole Kidman
Another true redhead. Love her accent.
A powerhouse actress.

6. Scarlett Johanssen
Pouty lips, very supple breasts.
A true lady.

5. Danica Patrick
Indy car driver who has no fear!
TOO HOT!

4. Sara Ramirez
She can sing and has very dangerous curves,
makes me drool at the sight.

3. Angelina Jolie
She's just plain beautiful, and also a little
bit crazy, just the way I like my women!

2. Catherine Zeta-Jones
She's the hottest brunette actress in
Hollywood in my opinion. Her eyes
hypotize me...

1. Kate Walsh
Who did you expect?
Not a natural redhead, but I love her
regardless. Her blue-green eyes and
her spunky attitude turn me on! LOL

Ok, now that you've seen my wishlist of famous girlfriends, I want you, NO I DARE YOU to fill out your own. DO IT! NOW!

Alphabet Meme!

2008-04-17T02:57:29Z

A - Accent: Used to have a southern accent, but it only comes when I'm angry
B - Breakfast Item: Biscuit
C - Chore you hate: Cleaning my room
D - Dad’s Name: William, but everyone calls him Fred
E - Essential everyday item: Hair tie
F - Flavor ice cream: Chocolate.
G - Gold or Silver? : Silver
H - Hometown: Fort Lauderdale, Florida
I - Insomnia: Can't fall asleep, and often wake up for no reason
J - Job Title: Part-time Associate Photographer
K - Kids: One
L - Loves to: Draw
M - Mom’s birthplace: Illinois
N - Never been to but would love to see: Ireland
O - Overnight hospital stays: Once for giving birth
P - Phobias: I don't like rubber chickens, but its not really a true phobia. I just don't like them.
Q - Queer: Like what? Bi? Sure, what's wrong with that?
R - Religious Affiliation: Catholic
S - Siblings: 3 Little sisters
T - Time you wake up: depends. 8AM to 11AM usually
U - Unnatural hair colors you've worn: Red, Black, Purple-ish
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: Okra
W - Worst habit: Nail biting
X - X-rays you’ve had: Head, Abdomen, Left and Right arms,
Y - Yummy: Sushi!!!
Z - Zodiac sign: Scorpio

My Job SUCKS. Most people do too!

2008-04-16T05:59:25Z

I hate my job. I hate people. I hate just about everything.

I peeled my eyelids open at ten to 8 this morning and stared at the ceiling. I had to go to work today....CRAP!! I willed myself to roll out of bed and after pouring a bowl of cereal, I woke Aislynn up and got her dressed and ready for the babysitter. Soon she was dropped off and I drove to the Hobart/Merrillville Wal-Mart for a day of Hell.

I had a gut feeling that today was going to suck. I didn't get much sleep last night and the little sleep I got was marred with bad dreams of sleeping through the alarm clock and being late for work. I walked into the studio five minutes early and starting the opening procedures (drawer count, server check, call to the manager, etc.) when my first appointment showed up. Twins. But not just twins, two three year olds. A boy and a girl. As I was trying to count the drawer, the little girl kept whining that she wanted her pic taken and her mom would say,"You have to wait for the lady, she's not done. The store's not open." Then the boy started to freak out that the lights were off. "She'll turn them on when she's done getting ready and opens the store." I flip the switch to stop said whining. The mom kinda seemed a little out of it; almost slow in the head. Her kids wouldn't sit still and would unpose themselves. I learned that their dad was in Iraq and would be back in a week or two. YAY! After I finished snapping their pics, I sent them off so I could work on editing and enhancing the pics. Now enter Bitchy Impatient Woman.

BIW comes into the studio as I'm in the process of working on the first appt's pics and says,"I need passport pictures done of these two." They are for her two daughters, one about 7, the other an infant. I have her fill out the paperwork so I can get some of my work done, but she interrupts me. "Excuse me! I'm in a hurry." BIW has a foreign accent, so I guess she doesn't know about waiting your turn. Whatev, I snap the kids' pics. But as I'm reloading the passport camera (its a Polaroid, so I have to load the cartridge carefully or risk exposing the entire pack of film) the first appt returns. Her pics aren't done being edited! And as I'm pulling the passport film from the camera to let it develop, the twins' mom is messing with my sales computer, messing up my pics in the process. I politely tell her to stop and she says ok. I then get a phone call from the studio manager and she tells me important changes to policy, blah blah blah, and now first appt. mom is saying to hurry cuz she has things to do. GREAT! Now I have two people bitching at me to hurry, and I'm only one person. As I finish editing first appt's pics and sell them to her, the twins have found the pens I store near the computer and have started to draw on my arms! The mom didn't even tell them to stop and now I have swirly tattoos on both arms :(. BIW gets pissed that its taking too long. My second appt shows up, as well as a well known insurance agent who needs business pics done.

I get first appt done and out. BIW's is bitching that she has an appt in Chicago in 4 hrs and can't wait. She wants me to charge her credit card without ringing up her order in the computer. Idiot. After I get her out (she left in a huff and a puff) I turn to my next two people and say,"I need a breather." They agree.

Second appt also has a three year old, but he won't smile. I finally tell him to not smile, and he does. Go figure. They are sent away and I take the insurance agent. She tells me that the pic I take will be on billboards around the county and on pens, buttons, and business cards. I'm excited but nervous, but she was very cool and I let her have a cd with three images instead of just one so she had a choice. I edit pics of second appt and sell it to them. Everything is going well.

I ate a pretzel for lunch and had a bottle of Dr. Pepper. I thought that the rest of the day would be slow; I had no appts scheduled for the rest of the day. WRONG!!! Soon enough, my quiet time is ruined by a black family. They were soooo mean to this little girl of theirs. She couldn't have been older than three, but she was being threatened for crying with a beating with her shoe and was called stupid. She wasn't lifted up from the ground like you normally see people pick up small children; she was grabbed under her right armpit and janked up off the ground! Her dad didn't even use two hands to lift her, just one. It looked like a bunch of apes in my studio, and I'm not trying to sound racist, but it really did! For a photo session of two little girls, there were at least 5 adults, all sitting in random chairs and illegally taking pics of the session on their phones. The smaller girl (a three month old) almost fell off the table cuz the mom was too busy doing whatever instead of holding her baby up!! I asked her multiple times to hold on to her child, and she would for about a minute and then let her go. I once had to run to hold onto the baby cuz she almost slipped down off the table as her mom was looking for her cell phone. They were an ignorant bunch of ***Ahem!!***. Sorry, but if I didn't want to risk my friendship with some people I'd have put a not so nice word in there. But that's what they were. They also caused me to leave uber late from work cuz they wouldn't leave! They just sat around the studio and talked to each other as I was trying to close.

So there you go: I hate my job and I hate people.

I got to see two sides of the spectrum today. One side, the kids weren't disciplined enough, and I got body checked in the right hip by the little three year old twin girl and drawn on with pen. The other side: borderline (if not full) abuse. I don't understand people sometimes; maybe that's why I hate them? I don't know. It's hard to see the good in people when there isn't much left in them. But who am I to judge? I'm going to bed and I'm going to cuddle up to Mike and sleep on my pillows misted with Japanese Cherry Blossom and hopefully sleep well tonight.

Paint the sky shades of gray

2008-03-30T06:13:17Z

Check out my newest piece of PS Art!

I took a picture of Sarah and did some major editing. After an hour of tinkering with my copy of CS2, this is what I got...

What can I say? It's uber sexy awesome. I call this The Storm Mage. You see, her flag is like the sky and the storm clouds and there's wind in her hair, so its like she's conjuring up some severe weather. Seriously. If this were how storms were made, I'd be standing outside for every single one. Oh wait, I do that already. Yeah...

Another Meme...

2008-03-13T04:25:58Z

These are too fun so I fill 'em out, even if no one else reads them! Lulz!

What time is it?: 10:56
DESCRIBE

Your heritage: Scotch-Irish, German, Italian, Polish, Swedish, Cherokee
The shoes you wore today: Black Non-Slip Clogs
Your eyes: Hazel
Your Best Quality: My happy personality
Your Worst Quality: My angry personality
Your weakness: sex
One thing you'd like to achieve: Gettin my nursing degree

WHAT IS

Your most overused phrase on aim: uh or like
Your thoughts first waking up: I'm awake
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Eyes
Your best physical feature: um...Imma gonna say butt cuz my face isn't extraordinary
Your bedtime: Midnight or so
Your greatest accomplishment: I had a baby, that's pretty hardcore
Your most missed memory: Cuddling with Foofi at night

DO YOU PREFER

Pepsi or coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's,
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Nike?
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino

DO YOU

Smoke: Very very rarely
Cuss: Yeah, too much
Take a shower everyday: Depends on if I'm dirty; I do take showers every two days
Have a crush(es): Yes
Who are they?: I'm not telling you
Think you've been in love?: Yeah, but love fades
Want to go to college: Yes (again)
Like high school: NO!
Want to get married: Didn't have much of a choice there.
Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: Yes, it was required in 9th grade
Believe in yourself: Not really
Get motion sickness: Yes, I have to either drive or ride shotgun
Think you're attractive: Yes
Think you're a health freak: Sorta, I watch my intake of food and keep my weight in check
Get along with your parents: Mostly
Like thunderstorms: I used to be afraid, but now I love 'em

HAVE YOU

Drank alcohol: Yes.
Smoke(d): Yes
Made Out: not really
Gone on a date: Yes
Gone to the mall: Yes, who hasn't? I'm serious!
Eaten sushi: YES! It's my fave food
Been on stage: yes, for high school musicals
Been dumped: Yes, once
Gone skating: Yes, and I beat up my sister for playing with my friends
Made homemade cookies: Yes
Been in love: Yes
Dyed your hair: Yes
Stolen anything: Yes, food from Mickey D's when I worked there.

IN THE LAST 24 HRS

Cried: No
Done laundry: No
Driven a car: Yes
Talked on the phone: Yes, the doctor's office called me

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: No
Your friends: Yes
Santa Claus: Did
Tooth Fairy: Did
Destiny/Fate: Yes
Angels: Yes, I also believe in demons too
Ghosts: My late cat likes to jump into bed with me
UFO's: Yes
God: Yes

FRIENDS AND LIFE

Do you ever wish you had another name?: Yes, Sarah
Do you like anyone?: UHHH, I guess so (wtf does this ? mean??)
Which one of your friends acts the most like you: Sarah
Who have you known the longest of your friends?: Audra
Are you close to any family members? Robyn (my sis) and I are pretty close
When have you cried the most?: I cry a lot when I get attacked by my mother. I completely break down and wail as I sit in a corner.
What's the best feeling in the world?: Some people do care
Worst Feeling?: Depression, hands down. It hurts really bad mentally. As for physical pain, drug withdrawal is not fun. If I don't take my antidepressant, my body goes numb and I shake, I feel like my blood has turned to ice and my skin is burning off at the same time. Then to top it off, I throw up AND I get depressed! So yeah, take your meds!

What time is it now?:11:25

My photobucket life!

2008-03-07T21:32:47Z

I stolte this from Sarah who stole from Kim who stole from Nikki and she got it somewhere else.

Let's see if this actually works...

Taken from nessa_lafferty
1. Go to photobucket.com.
2. Type in your answer.
3. Only use the first page.
4. Copy the html and paste it on here.

1. What is your first name? haha Peyton

2.What month were your born in?

3.What's your favorite tv show?

4. Favorite color? Black

5. Favorite Movie? Jurassic Park

6. Favorite Disney Princess?

7.What are you afraid of?

8.Favorite time of day?

9.Favorite accessory?

10.One Word to describe me? Weird

11.How old will you be on your next b-day? 25...so have some hamsters.

12.Favorite Drink?

13. Town you were raised in? Lebanon, TN. That pic is looking south on 231 from the eastbound offramp of I-40. Why do I know this? Cuz I lived there FOOLS! haha

14. Favorite Song? Apologize

15. MIddle Name?

16. Who I like? I love mah friends, but that's unorigional, sooo

The Best Sitcom EVAR!!!

2008-01-31T05:42:17Z

I decided to do the sitcom thing. This is what I got:

My LiveJournal Sitcom
Bringing Up entrapmentgirl (ABCFAM, 10:30): entrapmentgirl (Keifer Sutherland) falls off greys_addict (Bela Lugosi)'s porch and gets hurt. (Series finale.)
What's Your LiveJournal Sitcom? (by rfreebern)

And because my sitcom is totally cool, I made a snapshot from Bringing Up entrapmentgirl...

I must say the Keifer's head on Kate Walsh's body is surprisingly really hot! Oh and I must've suffered a massive brain hemorrhage on Sarah's crappy porch of doom.